Today, April 12, 2018 is the 12th Anniversary of my Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass surgery. The photo above is the only comparison photo I am going to do this year, I will save the multi-view photo for my 13th year anniversary, that’s my lucky (and favorite) number.
I wasn’t sure how I was going to celebrate today actually. In the first quarter of this year, I was sick 30 days of those first 90. I have had to withdraw my name from the qualifiers for the Women’s National Team (the first time, since it’s creation, I will NOT be at the World Championships at Battle of the Nations) and my husband JUST had surgery 3 days ago to repair his spine. So yea, being 12 years post-op wasn’t high on my list this year.
But, yesterday when I was recording an unboxing of my new Wonder Woman traveler’s notebook (see link below) from @TelevisionTrainWreck on Etsy, I couldn’t help but talk about it…and let myself ramble on about a wide variety of other things including our plans in case of a zombie apocalypse and why I lock the door while my pup goes potty outside lol.
Needless to say that 2018 has not been an easy year so far, however, I have also come to realize I am the happiest I have ever been and truly, I love my life, with all its ups and downs and crazy spins, it really does keep me entertained and I have no problem celebrating every day, which was my #1 goal the day of my surgery 12 years ago.
Celebrate the rest of my life, no matter what!
So that’s what I’m doing. I celebrate. I try my best never to simply endure my life, I try and focus on having fun, enjoying myself and doing the things that make me happy. Whether that’s swinging a sword or a fountain pen or visualizing making my dreams come true of being a writer and a coffee shop/stationary store owner, it doesn’t matter, as long as I am happy with the person I am.
I have recently read The Miracle Morning (just finished it this morning actually) and I have honestly enjoyed adding some time back into my schedule by getting up at 4:45am every morning. Its not nearly as hard as I thought it would be and its given me much needed quiet time to think about my future and figure out what kind of path I want to be on for this next segment of my life. Up til now, I hadn’t really put much thought into my retirement years but at 51, I can’t help it. Once I turned 50 it’s being thrown at me from every angle and I know I will need a plan.
Of course, I always need a plan…even when I fly by the seat of my pants, I’ve pretty much planned my ass off for it lol. Its what planner girls do.
So here we are, 12 years later, and I decided I would at least acknowledge it and when I saw the photo on the left, I realized my newest profile photo kind of matched it so I figured why not, let’s see the comparison. Truth be told I was kind of shocked at the difference because I remember when the photo on the right was taken. I’d just started to think about getting the surgery again, after so many denials and I wanted Greg to take a photo, because I felt pretty, having just done my makeup and getting my nails done.
Funny, because in the photo on the right, I had those exact same feelings. I’d just had a professional photographer take my headshot for our company website and I’d just had my nails done, and I felt pretty! This shot was not the one on the website, I actually took it myself (in the restroom of all places because its the only white background wall in the building lol).
13 years & 250 pounds separate these two photos, but the woman in them is pretty much the same, but I somehow feel freer. Free to be happy, free to be myself and free to do whatever the hell I want…because I am my own person, not being held back by society, or by fear of what people think about me anymore. I grew into myself (not grew up mind you, I will never grow up! LostBoys Forever!!!).
I finally feel like I am the Me I was meant to be…and I am happy with that person.
I hope you all enjoy your day today and never be afraid to celebrate the little things…whether they take 12 years or 12 minutes to make you happy!
The Badass Valkyrie